I usually heard people said, just follow your feeling, god will guide you.

I was used to doing things following my feeling, motion and even some flash idea. However, I gradually found my feeling usually guided me to the wrong way. If I do things without plan, just do whatever I want, things often gets out of my control.

Looking back at my past life, I feel a little confused. There isn’t a clear line of my life. There are many ups and downs, and also many turnings. It’s even hard for me to make a conclusion for my past life.

Sweet but short childhood, bitter long teenage period. And also the present adult life which sometimes seems bright but sometimes seems confusing.

There isn’t any words like “plan” ever appears.

Dreams and realism crashes in my life. Books teach me a lot of ideas, thoughts and principles about life, but as I growing up I found the thoughts can hardly exist in the real world.

Adults’ world is different with kids’.  Nobody has ever told me about this, life teaches me.

In the deepest part of my heart, there are some romantic, unrealistic even childish characteristics remaining. They are so unsuitable with the society, with the outside world. They are deeply hided, like people will laugh at you, will look down at you. People like childish thoughts with children’s looking, but won’t appreciate childish thoughts with adult’s looking. So do I.

Now it’s another turning in my life. Things seem not so perfect. The situation gets worse and it’s hard for me to make a choice.

When Ms. Feeling Is the First comes across Mr. Realism Is the First, it’s a disaster.

When I was younger, my sister told me, parents’ guiding is always right. They have experienced different situations in life, they can correctly forecast the result of different choices. Usually, their suggestions seem unacceptable to us, but facts proves that most of the time they are right.

However, my sister didn’t listen to my parents’ words when she came across her present bf. They are still together and unmarried. I don’t know if they can have a happy life or not in the future. God bless her.

Now, it’s my turn. It’s a hard time in my life and I don’t know how to choose. My parents’ suggestion is different with my bf’s wish. I have the same wish with him, but some matters make me hesitate. Maybe I should listen to dad’s words. He asks me to wait and see.